A Vision?!?  For the purpose of this writing, this is both a statement and also a question.

First, the question:

While at a Casting Crowns concert this past weekend, I heard reference made to the following bible verse:

“Where there is no vision, the people perish”   Proverbs 29:18

As it was presented to me, which I feel is often done in our society, it was actually only a partial quote and having now read the full verse, chapter and other translations, I feel it was used out of context.  However, before realizing this it still put a thought into my head.  My life lacks vision!  It’s not as if it was some new profound thought, I’ve kind of known this for a while now.  But it was enough to get the wheels turning and give me pause.

During the car ride back to Winchester on Sunday morning, I’m sure my wife was wondering why I was being quiet.  Truth was I just had a lot on my mind.  What is the vision that I have for my life?  It’s kind of like that dreaded question everyone is inevitably asked during a job interview, “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?  10 years?”  For the record, I have always hated that question, because deep down, I lacked that vision.  I’m not just talking about professionally either.  I mean professionally, personally, emotionally and spiritually.

As far back as I can remember I have pretty much always had the personality where I am just content to “Be”.  I see people in my life, most notably my mom and my wife, who always seem to have a plan for the things they want to achieve in life.   In short, they have a vision!  When they do finally reach that goal, they then set their sights on bigger and better things and continually drive themselves to be the best they can be.  I admire that type of drive and dedication so much, but it’s just not within my nature.  At least, not when looking at the bigger grand scheme of life.

This doesn’t mean that I am unhappy with my life in its current status or that I’m looking for some profound, mid-life crisis type of change.  Rather, I feel like my life needs direction.  As I sat there as a passenger in the car, riding along I-66 thinking about everything that’s happened in my life that’s led me to this point today, I had a vision!

The statement:

Well, maybe “vision” is a little too strong of a word.  As I stared out the windows at the passing trees and mountains along the country-side, I felt what is probably more aptly described as a calling.  I had this strange, almost urgent desire to put my thoughts down in written (or typed as the case may be) words and share them with others.  Let’s call it a transparent exercise of self-examination, if you will.  Not that this in itself is the vision that my life needs, but more so a tool to help me find and define what this vision is to be.

This of course, is what has led me to create this blog and share it with others.  I’m not sure how long this desire to write and share my thoughts will stay with me.  If any of you know me very well, you know that this is rather far outside of my normal comfort zone.  I’m not sure who or how many people I think will actually have any interest in what I have to say, outside of a couple of close friends and family, if anyone at all.  But I think that this will be a good exercise in learning how to better share the emotions and feelings that I normally keep hidden away in confines of my unspoken thoughts.